instead of radio silence

I want to have a baby.

Of course I want to be in love and have a baby with someone, but right now, I am 36 and single. What choice do I have?

I realize not everyone feels this way and I don't give a shit. I often envy people like that, but I don't relate.

I have some major decisions to make. And soon. Do you know how difficult this is? Dating isn't easy when you're 30 but it is a hell of a lot harder when you're 36. It feels likes its too late, so why bother? Yet I keep trying.

I have a lot of decisions to make.